This is for you

PEARLE & ME!

Alrite pearle, I have decided to delicate this post to you.. =))))))) Awww, see how much u meant to me.. HAHA..

Its been 1 year 7 months and 14 days since we first met and knew each other.. Over this period of time, we have had ups and downs, we have grown from being strangers to close friends.. Whenever i feel that our friendship would ceased, meeting you always reassure me that our friendship would continue. You nvr fail to liven up the situation.. I like ur carefree attitude and the fact that you are one of the most daring friend i ever had.. HAHA, being with you nvr fail to make me alive.. =D The things we share with each other is limitless.. Sensitive issues is like casual chats..

I am just gonna be blatant in this post.. hehe.. My friends recently asked me what type of gals i like, because they totally have no idea what kind of gals get me interested, and i also dun really know which type, but now i realised, you are the type of gal i like, not saying its you but ur character and such.. Very enticing.. haha.. Somehow.. Maybe mingling too much with you certainly influenced me subconsciously.. HAHA.. But nonetheless, you are a cool gal.. hehe.. Knowing you is a bliss.. THANKS FOR BEING SUCH A GOOD FRIEND.. PEARLE, YOU ARE LOVED! =))

P.S We shall party soon.. =)

Beyond boundaries.

Jumper

Alrite, lets start of with overdue stuff like hitting Phuture.. The experience there aint that good as well. Rebel is still the love.. Last week, on friday, hit the pub Spyderz with Jem, Pearle, Yucong, Benji and Cheryl.. It was her aunt's pub? Correct me if i am wrong.. =X So yea, one of the best time i had hanging out in a pub.. Even though the place is not very clean and the ambience is kinda dull, but still, with the right company, it just made up for it.. =D

This few days, had been rushing through reports, finally done with everything, a load off my mind.. But i have been missing sleep, so end up, i missed lessons for two straight days.. I even went to sch today just to eat subway cookies before heading home.. How cool is that? =.= Tonight shall be a nite out for me, not to pub nor club, but to study and head to sch tml.. HEHE.. Also a way to not be late for sch.. =D

I also realised, when people have their true friends, they ditch their friends for them no matter wat the situation is.. And then, they try to make it out to the friends.. Being selfish, wanting things to only be better and better for them.. And when they finally get the best that they can get, they ditch the rest.. This is just human nature, aint it?

I just wanna chill, relax and slow down my pace now.. Everytime i head out now, is either to a pub or club.. When will this stop, even though i think secretly i am a hedonist.. I am addicted to it.. I need a dose of it every now and then..

On the side note, i will study hard and do well for my test..

I just want to take a break from this hectic yet vapid life that i have.. Ironic ain't it..

Some say

This week have been a fun-filled weekend.. The best weekend i have ever had for so long, makes me feel very much alive..

Starting frm friday, hanged out with Pearle, Violet, Yilin and Jeremy at Plaza Singapura then had Sakae Sushi for dinner.. I was dared 10 plates of 'Chuka Hotate' after gorging down tons of sushi.. And wat is my reward for that? A peck frm Violet.. And Jeremy also got a peck for eating 7 plates of sushi.. Its violet's lucky day.. HAHA.. Though its nothing much but it shows how daring and my frenz are ppl who keeps their word.. Very thankful i have friends that are so trustworthy and bears similar frequency as me..

Saturday, went to grandma hse for dinner and to catch up with my relatives.. The feeling of family warmth.. Whats more, its also a time when u can totally let your guards down with nothing to be wary of.. This is wat i want next time as well, a family person i guess..

Sunday, soccer as usual, and evening was the time to meet Amanda, went to eat prata at Thomson Road, awesome stuff.. After which head to Liquid Kitchen to chill and chat as usual.. Amanda said this to me, 'You are not someone who is very handsome but u give gals a feeling that they feel very comfortable being with you.. Three years down the road and i am sure more gals will be into you, you have the assets and the capabilities..' Hmmm, hopefully my life will be like wat she says..

Its really great to have friends like Amanda and Pearle.. People that shares thoughts and bared their souls without having to conceal much from one another.. Maybe on the search of myself, i am actually crafting myself..

Boundaries hinders progress. Break through the horizon. =)

Back at one

Alright, back from Powerhouse, would say its an utter disappointment.. Spend so much time queuing and cabbing ard.. My 3rd time so far and the worse clubbing experience ever, a major turn off.. Saw hui chin and her homies and etc.. But other than that, nothing much worth mentioning..

One word to describe me, 'Irascible' would be the most appropriate word right now.. Everything just seems to pissed me off.. I seem to be pushing my luck so very often that in my sub conscious mind, i just hope to get bash up someday and just lay motionless on the ground.. I wonder whether that will make me feel more alive..

Beneath all these facade front, i am just an hollow shell with nothing to look forward or strive for.. I hate being undefined, finding myself has always been my priority for so long and yet the result i get is just another round about.. I just wish to be a decent student chilling ard being low profile but at the end of the day, i do the extreme stuff that makes me more prominent.. Whats worse is that i have no close friends since i shape shift into another person when hanging out with different groups of ppl.. Maybe i am just an angry hedonist..

Apart from that, there are so many uncouth faggots out there and yes, i am ashamed to say i am one of them but seriously, once u show a frail side, ppl will tend to take advantage of u, its just human nature.. Since ancient time, we are just making use of one another to reach our goals, in a way or another, its a reality that is unavoidable.. Life is so much of an irony, and the endless cycle of hypocrisy just makes me wish that Armageddon happens right now so everyone will just fade to black..

Alright, back to studying before heading for soccer.. =D Influx of thoughts are gushing into my head so much that i cant relate myself well.. All are just my two cents..

Life cease, love wanes.

Chalk Line

After reading someone's blog, i am awe strucked.. Its very enriching and true..

Before i type this post, i asked Pearle one question,
-Nick- Where will this lead to? STUB.. says:
do u consider me as someone who knows lots of gals, or someone who knows few gals..
Pearle 45 says:
hmm a guy who knows alot of girls.

But i have few frenz that are gals that i keep in contact with.. Everyone seems to be passerby in my life..

So actually, it is just to rebut the fact that not only someone who knows few gals tend to think that every new gal that meet is a potential gf, but someone who knows lots of gals can also have that same thinking.. Personally i have known a number of people who are like that. In fact i wont rule myself out frm this as well.. Its just the desire and such that can totally distort the sanity of a person.

'No money, No honey. Thats how fucking practical girls are these days! You got no car, they tell u, 'Oh sorry, i got sth on', you got the car, they ask u, 'dude wana chill in town?' wtf -.-" back when u were in secondary, u'd go town via public transport, now if no one picks you up, you declare urself home-bound.'
Adapted from a friend's blog..

I find the above paragraph very true.. Or more or less along that line.. Material gains is all people talks abt now, majority, and yes, its a stereotype here.. But its also a fact, who doesnt seek for material gains and wealth in this days.. The slightest way possible, everyone is a part of this.. =)

And everyone talks abt equality, but who in the first place aint the least bit racist or sexist.. Even when a gal says that guys and gals are equal, but in their subconscious mind, its still mildly skewed towards the fact that guy shld do this and that..

Everything is just by a chalk line..

Now i shall hit the club, 'Powerhouse'. =) Till then..

Easily blurrified or erased. Where would this lead us to?

Another Song About The Weekend

Let me just blog one last time before sch starts on this coming monday.. The time is up, sch's back with the same usual routine for me.. Screwed..

Didnt achieve much at all this hols.. And kinda amazing how i source for ppl and its always a success.. =))) Awesome..

Aint life tiring revolving ard being superficial, materialistic, stereotyping and judging one another.. It makes us look like we were ill educated.. Actually, who can really judge, no one.. Everyone falls into a certain criteria somewhere.. Not even monk, nun, pope or watever and whoever be excluded frm this.. Even the saint or god sin.. Who is to say and know wat and how satan is? How can we be so sure satan is evil and not kind and watsoever.. People who have this thinking in their head, think again, u know wat u are? You guys are merely stereotyping and showing how superficial humanity is.. How well u ppl know abt God, who knows 'God' might actually be the Devil spreading blasphemy abt 'Satan' which might be the real God. Its just how we perceive things.. For those who know me and wish to retort abt this, yes, i am an atheist(not a pagan), but i am saying in the view of a neutral person.. Think abt it before u comment..

That aside, school life, shall get ready for my DOPING school life.. woots.. Feeling all high and happy with my awesomely screwed timetable.. NAWT! Screw school.. Lets hope for the better though.. =D Life is always filled with pretty lies to cover those deep cuts within ourselves.. Shall enjoy and make full use of my weekend.. =)

P.S. Did i forget to mention that catalog is my new love..

Let's be true to ourselves. They are like my checklist, my field reports.. Damned, losing it..

First & Foremost

LET's BEGIN WITH FUN STUFF!
30/9(Wed) was my ALPHA nite @ REBEL! This is the point when my holiday takes a turn from boredom to more than simply awesome.. 2 bottles of chivas and off we hit the dance floor.. WOOTS!

On the same week, 3/10(Sat), we hit the same club again due to Social House being cluttered with CHINKS! GOD, but nevertheless its yet another awesome nite out.. Just 1 bottle of chiva this time.. Its been hell of a crazy nite for everyone.. But we wont relent, we will still do it sometime.. Watch us peeps..

To summarise: 1week, 2 days, 3 bottles.. GAH.. 'What happens in the club, stays in the club' Carry this whenever we go, we all have our own mess in it so we leave it as it is and not sprout all these around like wild flame..

As for my hols, its definitely monotonous. Its sick actually.. Sleep at 5-6 am and wake at 3-5 pm. Finally cleared 'Heroes' and 'Hanazakari No Kimitachi E'.. TOTALLY AWESOME AND HILARIOUS.. Hanazakari is a must watch.. Somehow, i felt lonely throughout this hols until this past week and after watching Hanazakari.. Guess all this somehow changed my life, slowly, but definitely undergoing metamorphosis.. 2 weeks more to the start of my dreadful school semester.. Gotta do as much as i can and be done with my guitar and 2 books.. Tentatively, this shall be it..

You don't have a place, you are out of the game.

My Life For Hire

Finally exams are over, even though i won't do that well, i am not daunted by it.. I am taking it too easily i guess.. Before my exam ends, i was occupied with overwhelming thoughts, so much so that one would feels an assorted variety of emotions at the same moment.. It just crashes your mind, and before one knows it, it malfunctioned..

Why things turned out this way, this still perturbs me after so long, i fucking hate it.. It's like a tug at my heartstring whenever i am browsing through my memory bank.. It is as if memories of you occupies the most prominent room just by the corridor, Influx of memories often revolves around you somehow, but i know that all these won't revert back, its like a widening gap that can't be mend.. I kinda hate the fact that i still hope to talk to you but its impossible anymore.. Why had all these had to happened? Totally screwed..

Lets not drown this post with solitude and sorrowness, that is if, any was sensed.. Currently, its holiday, so i have planned a routine for myself.. Hopefully i can achieve what i planned.. Hopefully i have work as well..

Everyday, Guitar.. Tuesday - Learn guitar from friend as well.. Read more novels.. Every saturday jog and stuff in the morning.. Every night it will be drama series.. Hopefully, i am able to find job so that it could fund me for tons of things like trips to taiwan, ITP(Vietnam), japan, and of course, SLR.. TRUCKLOAD OF WISHLIST NOW, how i wish i strike lottery or have tons of job opening for me.. Anyone, hire me please.. =D PROJECT S.A.V.E!

Tml it shall be another day out, I wonder how am i supposed to achieve this project save.. Grrr.. Nvm, i shall start another bank account and deposit my money inside.. =D My funds for good stuff.. =D Shall end it here.. =) Be back soon.. =)))

What wouldn't be of me without you.

P.S. I think i am losing more than i am gaining..

Dawn of Anguish

Alrite, everything seems screwed for me, ppl seems kinda fucked up to me.. I get pissed off and frustrated easily.. Some things i realised, ppl come to you when they need help and when you needed help, they fool around with you and what's worse, some preach at you for FUCK SAKE and think they are fucking god damn matured.. SERIOUSLY, just fuck off and suck ur mother fucking pride up.. Oh, to continue with what i said, they FUCKING FOOL around with you and still not help you, divert you to someone else to seek for help.. ALL THESE FUCK UP PPL, JUST FUCK UR OWN LIFE and die.. Am i also fooling around too much that i am giving others the impression that i am merely air-headed, stupid, fucked up, irritating.. I think i am, so i should just shut the fuck up and be serious from now on..

I finally found something, and somehow after reading it, thoughts, memories started gushing into me yet again.. FUCKED.. Is it because of me? I hope not.. Shouldnt have gone so far, so we wouldnt fall so hard.. Maybe its just me.. Nevertheless, i just hope you will have more friends and enjoy your great life.. =)

Maybe i am losing friends faster than i expect, or maybe i should say, realising i am losing friends.. WHAT THE FUCK do i really want? I am just too frustrated to study for my exams.. FUCK!

Unravel the obscure. Memory lapse.

Sunday Morning

WOOTS! ENDED EXAMS.. I SIMPLY ROCK.. THIS WEEKEND IS FILLED WITH ACTIVITES.. =D Oh, today i went to play soccer at THE CAGE, and and and i broke my spectacle.. FUCK! yea, thats the word.. As usual, whenever i play at THE CAGE, i nvr fail to break my spectacle.. And today, i broke it because we were chasing for a ball, and due to the fact that the floor was slippery, my fren slipped, and hit his head against mine.. Freak.. Oh, here comes poker tonight and tml, yet again is SOCCER.. =D SHIOK.. And also, BUFFET.. Nice.. haha..
P.S Sunday morning is doped.. haha..

You appeared in my mind every now and then..

Clean Breaks

This week and next week is gonna be hectic for me.. Yesterday went drinking, awesome much.. Shared our thoughts with one another, drank tequila.. RC seems tipsy, Jerry went into his slumber after a few cup since he got to work the next day, Jeremy and YC seems fine.. But for me, got a little high i guess, and super tired, but i still have control over myself..

Departed at 3.. Making our way home one by one.. Took NR6.. Crapped, fell asleep and got chased down the bus at 43o+.. In the end i cab back home, only to realise the lousy cab doesnt accept nets, so have to withdraw money at the nearest ATM to pay for the fare.. Right after i withdrew the money, i puked like crap, the first time i puked after drinking.. God screw it.. Wake up and went for soccer.. Feeling groggy though.. IT fair is coming, woohoo.. =D Shiok shiok..

Better start studying and do my projects if not i am so going to be buried alive.. Figuratively.. =D

You are such an escapist.. Even though somewhat i knew things would turn out this way i still go ahead with it, but u of all people, chose to escape and think that it would be good and all.. Deem me as an asshole or wat i dun care, but dun u think u are a little too immature? I bet i will be ur topic of 'this guy used to like me and stuff.' Its just so you to do all this but i dun really care..

Maybe i just wasn't that into you.. Avoidance is your forte, acceptance is mine..

A word compo..

DIU!

I screwed myself up badly.. And i am at a dilemma..

3-6-9

After the chat yesterday, i think i have found my resolve.. When i came back at 2+ in the morning, i dun feel tired at all. It seems as if u are constantly feeding me ample amount of energy to stay awake.. At 5 in the morning when i tried to slp, i couldnt, you seem to have bought all the tickets of the train as my train of thoughts was filled with u, u alone takes up most if not all of my thoughts. It was a nite of reminiscence. I realised that you were the only one that i can be my usual self with. We share the same frequency and character.. And i am sure you have nvr realised i liked you for a period of time and i always thought that it was because we were too close with each other that i felt that way so i tried to distant from you. All seems fine, until i met you again. I dunno why i felt the awkwardness and i bet you felt it as well, its like a mutual thing. And suddenly i was treated as a non-existent by you. You are the first person to make me go back on my words and throw my pride away to try to get you back.. Somehow, you made me go all over you though you dun even care if we would ever rebound. Questions of me and you together occasionally pops into my head and made me wonder. The actions that you do is able to affect my mood totally, its as if i am under some kind of drug. After distancing from you, i realised i seldom contact any other gals as well.. Whenever, i see ur msg now, it nvr fails to bring a smile across my face, sometimes during class i will juz laugh to myself for no apparent reason. I felt really comfortable being with you and that i dun care wat would become of us in the future, but now, i will try my best to get you back as a fren or maybe more than just fren. I have planned something but it all depends on how u reacts.

I have my resolve, are you juz going to continue this?

Hallelujah

This few weeks had been rough for me and today was relieving.. And i spent ard $100 yesterday.. =x felt so bad.. Today i went for bbq gathering and straight after that, PRATA session.. Totally awesome.. Never felt so good for quite a long time.. Very insightful indeed.. Have many more thoughts and ideas running through my mind, totally kept me awake at this hour of time.. Had a clearer picture of where i shld go and wat i shld do.. Alrite, shall finish my journal now..

We hit it off well, but can we end it well?

Suffocating Under Words Of Sorrow (What Can I Do)

Seriously, I did wat i could to get u back, but ur aloofness makes me feel like you dun give a fucking damn at all.. Fine, escape all u want.. If this is wat u want, fine, go ahead with it.. I shant bother no more till u come and find me.. Had enough, ur indifference to wat i do seriously deafens me like never before.. Affect me in every single way. I seriously cannot think of anything more that i can do to rectify.

On a lighter note, went out with Meiying today to watch Angels & Demons, awesome much though they changed the last branding to something uncool.. =.= Bought my clothes as well, now the only thing left to do is to send it for printing.. =D Saw desmond and we somewhat had a mini telepathic conversation which kinda made me laugh.. =x haha..

What can i seriously do?

Makes Me Wonder

Gratitude.

(I will be the first in the queue for this)

I threw my pride away and bite my own tongue for wat i said, but u still choose to escape without giving me a reason. Now i have to lay in it and deal with things left unsaid. I wonder if it makes a difference if i continue to try. Little did i know the effects you had on me would be so drastic but i still hope you are living happily. Thank you for being such a good friend to me and that you will never be replaced. Even though things turn out this way, Things i learnt from you or wat have turned out now had made me realised and understand much more. We might never even talk, or even meet each other but when you need me, i will be there for you. How true is this, 'Love the heart that hurts you the most , but never hurt the heart that loves you the most'.

Lost & Found.

Just a little too not over you

N used to be one of E's best friend and also the first to date E out. But things spiralled so horrendously that they were treating each other as non-existent even though they didnt even have bad blood or quarrels or anything b4.. Its juz awfully weird.. N felt that things will nvr be the same again but P encourage N to try and rectify this instead of looking back and regret in the future. N might grab this chance or let go. Recently, it havent been going well for N, everything seems to come crashing on him. Today he realised it kinda prick him when he discovered something abt M. Scandals of N and E still lurks but no one knows that behind the scene N used to carry a torch for M. Much to his surprised, denial and bewilderment, he dunno whether this torch has extinguished or is it still flickering discreetly. M better takekaire of herself.

On a lighter note, i went for camp today.. Awesome.. Did not interact much though.. =X

A lifetime to bind, a second to change..

Story Of A Girl

Awkwardness

Calla used to blossom prettily under the care of a girl and a boy who were quite close, until the girl left for her overseas undertaking. When the girl was back, however, did not inform the boy but left the boy alone to tend the Calla. When the time the boy discovered the girl was back, he also realised that the Calla were withering. It was his decision to leave the Calla to wither than to minister since he felt that its pointless. When the girl went back to the Calla, she tried to revivify the Calla, but soon came to realize that its too much for her to do it alone. Recently, the boy and the girl met again, and flashback of the Calla came back to the boy and the girl. Now that the Calla is on the brink of death, the only way to regenerate is to have a little miracle, but is it even possible?

Enough said, now that sch have started and having to cope with work and cca, I am so busy that I am flustered as to whether I can juggle another cca even though at this rate, I will crumble with a doubt, which is something I cannot afford to.

Are u replacable? I doubt so.. You are one of a kind, but its sad that we turned out this way.

A day of awkwardness, a lifetime of remembrance.

Revelation

School is finally starting.. Life is going to be like a routine when is start.. And i am discovering more abt myself.. Always.. This hols have not been very fruitful but i have learnt quite a lot of things.. Exposed to the unexposed.. Time for a change.. =) Life is seriously ludicrous.. Amazing how fast ppl drifts frm close friends to close to acquaintances.. Numerous stuff, which i have been thinking, uncovered itself right before me every now and then.. Time, such an important thing in our life, yet its being wasted like it was just a want..

Oh, damn, it seems like i am on the verge of falling ill..

I have no idea what i want..

Broken

Recently, i have been down on my luck.. Went gym on wednesday and hit my lip and my finger with dumbbells. Today, i went to play soccer and i dislocated my right hand while saving a shot, which renders it unable to do much things much less to say write properly.

And damn it, i still havent get my pay and i cant find any damn jobs. Geez.. I am so damn dead..
Hopefully my hand recover quickly and i can find a job soon. =D

Endless cycle. Understand my intricate self.

Out of Reach

What up? Say hello to Major WHORE & General AWESOME.. =)

Reminisce the days when we were all together having fun and laughter makes me want to relive the moment. But its been like a year and many things have changed. Doubt we can hang out together as a whole group again. Who am i actually? It juz seems like i still havent find out the answer. Am i studying juz because this realistic world requires qualification so that one would be recognized? Bewildered by these thoughts that kept me alive.. Whatever the case is, will definitely try to work these thoughts out and to organize some outing.

Life is filled with emptiness.

Empty

Life withers.

Recently, have been job hunting, watching shows and yea, finally finished my How I Met Your Mother Series.. =D Up next, Heroes, Supernatural and Ghost Whisperer. Thursday gonna start my crusade through IT Fair. Sure hope i can sell, if not i am dead.. =(

Watched Push, but the ending sucks, after which went to catch up with Shuni and Shimin, hope i didnt bore u two out, though i certainly doubt i didnt.. =X Sry, i juz dun know wat to say.. Haha.. tsk tsk..

Alrite, back to my life, even though i might seem to be busy with my life and such but the irony is that i still feel empty.. I juz seems to lag something in my life, but i juz couldnt describe wat it is.. I seems to be thinking but i dunno wat i am thinking.. I cant concentrate on wat i am doing recently as well.. Its like i am facing a paradox right in my brain.. Damn it.. Screw this feeling..

Is there something more?

Omen Reprise

Yesterday was having my damn STATISTIC EXAM.. Hope i get good grades.. =D Up till now, exams are still quite fine. After that, went gym.. At nite when to meet Amanda since its been long since i last saw her, and that it was a miracle she wanted to meet me after quite long.. haha.. Chilled at thomson plaza starbucks, till 1 plus and cabbed over to her neighbourhood to chat.. Send her home at ard 4 in the morning and off i go to yishun mac to absorb some tiny weeny bit of knowledge for this upcoming last paper.. Back at 630 and went to bed..

Woke up at 11 plus today to meet Evangeline to shop for Afiq's present.. And she arrived ltr, though i know its as usual.. haha.. Hmmm, after which we went to meet Afiq at marine parade.. Today wasnt a good day for me.. Went out penniless for the first half of the day, found out my shirt got some red dye which seriously got me a little more upset.. Juz when i was excitedly withdrawing my cash frm the atm machine, the FUCKING machine, instead of dispensing cash, opened up, and for a moment, i was totally stupefied when the machine ate my damn card away.. After i recollected myself, i went down to somerset to get a replacement and to withdraw cash as i am not going to accept the fate of being out penniless the whole day..

After which, went for a little movie.. =D THE CURIOUS CASE OF BENJAMIN BUTTON.. Its awesome.. haha.. And after that, we went separate ways to head for home.. =) I need a damn job, am seriously broke..

Am i concealing my feeling? Am seriously puzzled..

This Isn't The End

Whoa, finally reached the last day of sch for year 1. This past week has been one hell of a week for me, projects and presentations stole my time, life and everything from me, but fill me with stress, pimples, deadlines to meet, and nothingness. But my presentation today owns.. Haha, put that aside, now i have a one week break, WOOHOO!! NAWT!! Its study break.. tsk.. Just when school ended, exams are getting closer and reaching out for me, every second that ticks away right at this every moment is a second wasted to get knowledge into my uber fast processor and awesomely humongous memory space. Life will change and be awesomely legendary after exams. And nothing's ending, or rather when something ends, it leads to the start of something.. =D

Nothingness..

Bite My Tongue

Lots of thoughts have been going through my mind this week yet i could only elucidate one of those things which sets me thinking and keep me feeling lousy.. I was thinking of the fact that we activated 'free rider' for FOM project to reduce Firi's marks down to only 50 for his participation.. But seriously, that whole day after we activated that, i was wondering, does he deserve only 50 out of 100.. Because to me, giving him only 50 out of 100 is too harsh and adding to it, i seriously dun wish to undermine his result juz because of a lame excuse like wat if he do better than me.. Come on, i seriously dun really care, and that even if he is to beat me in that, that juz mean that he is good.. That is juz a stupid reason and pls dun think i am such a lowdown person.. The reason is juz too lame for me to accept that he simply deserve 50 out of 100.. Personally i feel he deserve much more than 50, like at least 75 for the minimum.. But since the whole group(including me) put 50, he accepted and yea.. I was seriously troubled by this for that whole day.. GOD DAMN IT!! But yea, in the end i feel that its no point pondering over it since i cant do anything to undo it..

Anyway, yesterday was quite fun, went sch but seriously have no mood so didnt really pay attention to any of the lesson.. Was totally anticipating for the nite life that i have planned.. Though it wasnt very good, i still appreciate u guys for making an effort to come.. Thanx.. And i will definitely plan it again after exams.. I feel so weird after jerry 'fortune told' abt my life for this year, it seriously got me pondering abt things.. Since when am i so superstitious. geez.. Seriously, i have to save up, been spending quite a lot recently.. Damn damn damn..

Chinese New Year is juz ard the corner yet i dun feel anything.. And that projects and exams are drawing nearer.. I could hardly breathe..

I feel like a failure everytime i think of it.. Hope i can find the answer soon..

A Town Called Hypocrisy

Hypocrisy teems the town..

Alrite, here i am to update my god forsaken blog.. tsk.. I have been a tad too busy nowadays to even update my blog.. Lets start with sch, been flooded with tons of homework and presentations and reports to do.. Always looking forward to weekends to relax.. And seriously, sch is like a place filled with hypocrites.. Silent muggers all around, shall not pinpoint who they are.. Its like as good as a workplace filled with politics, backstabbers backstabbing one another without realizing that they are being back stab at the same time..

And i have pondered for months abt frenz, ppl u seriously wish to care but to them, ur existence may seem so minute or maybe even just another nobody in this earth.. Listen to their promises which times and again break, and reaffirming that they didnt mean it and will make up for it.. However, days after days, months after months, years after years, it doesnt change at all.. Grown sick and tired of listening to all this crap.. Say wat u meant, do wat u promise.. Empty promises, all talks but no actions simply makes me irks u.. Living in wat we call a great society, but in fact, its juz a facade to a town called hypocrisy..

On a lighter note on my happenings, I utterly embarrassed myself in sch, but shan't go into detail on that.. And now looking forward to shopping & Evangeline's bday.. Haha.. Chill Chill Chill!!!
Actually, i have some other cool happenings to post, but now i cant recall any so yea, till then..

Adopted a new policy..