Back at one

Alright, back from Powerhouse, would say its an utter disappointment.. Spend so much time queuing and cabbing ard.. My 3rd time so far and the worse clubbing experience ever, a major turn off.. Saw hui chin and her homies and etc.. But other than that, nothing much worth mentioning..

One word to describe me, 'Irascible' would be the most appropriate word right now.. Everything just seems to pissed me off.. I seem to be pushing my luck so very often that in my sub conscious mind, i just hope to get bash up someday and just lay motionless on the ground.. I wonder whether that will make me feel more alive..

Beneath all these facade front, i am just an hollow shell with nothing to look forward or strive for.. I hate being undefined, finding myself has always been my priority for so long and yet the result i get is just another round about.. I just wish to be a decent student chilling ard being low profile but at the end of the day, i do the extreme stuff that makes me more prominent.. Whats worse is that i have no close friends since i shape shift into another person when hanging out with different groups of ppl.. Maybe i am just an angry hedonist..

Apart from that, there are so many uncouth faggots out there and yes, i am ashamed to say i am one of them but seriously, once u show a frail side, ppl will tend to take advantage of u, its just human nature.. Since ancient time, we are just making use of one another to reach our goals, in a way or another, its a reality that is unavoidable.. Life is so much of an irony, and the endless cycle of hypocrisy just makes me wish that Armageddon happens right now so everyone will just fade to black..

Alright, back to studying before heading for soccer.. =D Influx of thoughts are gushing into my head so much that i cant relate myself well.. All are just my two cents..

Life cease, love wanes.