I'm So Tired

BUSY BUSY WEEK.

Met Julien yesterday for dinner. At last, the 2 days event have ended, such torturous hours it have been. I did so woo Julien if i knew her 5 years ago. mehhh. Continuous working is really wearing me out, i am so lazy to even talk at all now.

Thursday dinner date. Friday is alcohol date. Sunday is bbq & alcohol date. Mahh gosh, so packed. Shall catch up with Wenxin next week hopefully. Miss her crazy self.

So many people i need to catch up with, yet so little time and money.

OH, i am now a member of benjamin barker, so if any of you buys from there, you can get my IC for discount. :)

I am a bringer of disappointment.

A liability.

Lazy to explain.

Terrified

"Wei she me hui zhe yang?"

When i heard this while you are asleep, it really caused tears to swell.

Damn, getting damn emotional.

Hope you can recover soon. like real soon.

Stay strong. Who wants to have a little getaway with me?

Opportunity To Cry

If only i could find a note to make you understand.

You are the first to experience all these shit from me. I am sorry that times and again i hurt you. But at least we sort it out and now everything's over.

If you ever need any help, i did be there to help you, but that's that, nothing more from me or from you.

This aside, life is getting more and more rough as time goes by, everyday's slur. Job, health, friends & everything, isn't working as well as i would hope it did be. Time for an escapade. Sometimes we got to disappear before we appear as another person. This is when change becomes obvious.

People come and go like they're on the interstate.

Sometimes

Sometimes people just like to play the pull and push game.

Sometimes when one pushes the other too hard, the other will be gone.

Sometimes the inertia causes the one who pushes to move along with the other.

Sometimes when pulled, the person just come closer,

and at others, the person got pulled too hard so much that it hits the person that pull and be flung away.

Life is taking a dive and i am all psyched for what's hitting. Hit me hard pls. I deserve more than just a beating. Because yet again, i have been mean. Like what people has been calling me recently, meanie i am, meanie i am.

You bring out the worst in me. The first to.

I shall go on a hiatus soon.

Were the leap of faith so tough, i did still take it and plunge. Because it makes my life complete.

Promises, Promises

Sometimes we don't speak what we feel, for it's pointless.

This year has been eventful. Recently so many things has been happening, how long can i keep up before i crumble?

Recover fast pls. Never want to lose anyone.

Been weak enough. I can't hold out much longer.

I can't wait to get out of all these things. I really need to live in a make believe world, even if its only for a few days.

P.S How apt is this song for me.

I really want a getaway trip with you.

Let Me Go

You made your choice, now is to reap it. ;)

You might be one of my regret, but it's one i could live with.

No questions asked.

When i turn my back this time, there's no turning back.

I Need A Doctor

To take a leap of faith or to be on a constant standstill.

Was wavering between this and i decided to ask some people what would their choice be. Most replied with leap of faith.

Guess i am on a constant self denial thinking i am staying away but all i was actually doing was standing on the same ground motionless.

We never know what we might get for risking, so why not risk it.

Some things you just have to spend time waiting for.

Since thursday i have been vomiting and having runs till today. I guess it calls for me to visit the doctor.

For what it's worth.

Teenage Angst

Major Pet Peeves

#1 When after every sentence of mine, bonebags replied the same thing, 3 is the key.

#2 People giving me the impatient/bossy tone.

#3 People who tries to stand on a moral high ground.

Deep down, i just try to push everyone that's close or could be close to me further away from me so that no one could enter my comfort zone. Its this constant that keeps me safe. I doubt anyone can handle me for who i am because i am just an enigma leaving everything in the grey area.

I ain't what you people think i am. I am worse than you expect.

You can call me change or constant.