Use somebody

A taste of freedom. Its like dove released from their cage.

Looking back, i have changed much throughout poly life, it seems. Mentally, more of it.

Andrik Sim Zhenping, will never forget this big boy that i know. The one who opened the Pandora box. Shaping who i am now. Can't say i love it or i hate it. I am in the grey zone. Conflicting much. My ideologies, my wants, my beliefs.

Throughout poly life, i have known many more people, opening me up to people from all walks of life, pretty much interesting. Gain a few close friends and definitely knowledge. Often wonder how long will all this friendship last.

As for what i have lost, friends definitely. The chance of knowing more people. All these blues are getting into me somehow, i feel weird. Its such an ambivalent feeling. Uneasy, squeasy.

When exam is near, always have this mixed feeling as well. Undue thoughts. Pestering my mind.

Its like the next transition. What should i do? What will i become? Where would i be?

I feel empty without talent. I need to pick up some skills.

Make believe is what we do best.