Shake It Out

I think i will try and rectify, only to crash again.

Just when i have been keeping my temper in check, everyone just keep trying to test it. Just because i didn't flare, doesn't mean i am a pushover. It's just that when i actually flare, you won't see yourself anywhere near happy. Just felt that i am taken for granted and that if you want to step over me, tell me, i did even let you punch me. Maybe the reason i hadn't flare up is that i am used to this shit, to the point i am fine with it. I am not saying i am immune to this, i am disappointed but it's like 'i dun wanna be anal and make things difficult and awkward'. I am getting hypocritical and i pretty much hate myself for acting like a bitch. Oh well, life is tough.

No matter how i look at it, i am behind time.

Calliope

Why isn't anyone telling me i am fucked up.

Sometimes i just don't understand girls, no, i should say more than often. It's driving me crazy. Oh well, my fuse is close to burnt out so either some lights can be shed if not it did be houdini act. I think too much about what you are thinking that makes me speak gibberish. Don't leave me dumb founded. Be nice.

This aside, i saw an old man dressed preppily with a newspaper boy cap, along with his aged wife. I mean even at this age, celebrating valentines day with a simple meal at a coffee shop, how sweet is that. He caught my eyes and i just smiled at him and he returned a smile which is ever so faint yet nice. How sweet is that sight. At that instant, i wanted to capture the image down but to my dismay, i have no camera to snap away with.

If you realised how messed up i am, please let me know.

'Cause you're hot and you're cold, You're yes then you're no, You're in then you're out, You're up then you're down.