Bite My Tongue

Lots of thoughts have been going through my mind this week yet i could only elucidate one of those things which sets me thinking and keep me feeling lousy.. I was thinking of the fact that we activated 'free rider' for FOM project to reduce Firi's marks down to only 50 for his participation.. But seriously, that whole day after we activated that, i was wondering, does he deserve only 50 out of 100.. Because to me, giving him only 50 out of 100 is too harsh and adding to it, i seriously dun wish to undermine his result juz because of a lame excuse like wat if he do better than me.. Come on, i seriously dun really care, and that even if he is to beat me in that, that juz mean that he is good.. That is juz a stupid reason and pls dun think i am such a lowdown person.. The reason is juz too lame for me to accept that he simply deserve 50 out of 100.. Personally i feel he deserve much more than 50, like at least 75 for the minimum.. But since the whole group(including me) put 50, he accepted and yea.. I was seriously troubled by this for that whole day.. GOD DAMN IT!! But yea, in the end i feel that its no point pondering over it since i cant do anything to undo it..

Anyway, yesterday was quite fun, went sch but seriously have no mood so didnt really pay attention to any of the lesson.. Was totally anticipating for the nite life that i have planned.. Though it wasnt very good, i still appreciate u guys for making an effort to come.. Thanx.. And i will definitely plan it again after exams.. I feel so weird after jerry 'fortune told' abt my life for this year, it seriously got me pondering abt things.. Since when am i so superstitious. geez.. Seriously, i have to save up, been spending quite a lot recently.. Damn damn damn..

Chinese New Year is juz ard the corner yet i dun feel anything.. And that projects and exams are drawing nearer.. I could hardly breathe..

I feel like a failure everytime i think of it.. Hope i can find the answer soon..

A Town Called Hypocrisy

Hypocrisy teems the town..

Alrite, here i am to update my god forsaken blog.. tsk.. I have been a tad too busy nowadays to even update my blog.. Lets start with sch, been flooded with tons of homework and presentations and reports to do.. Always looking forward to weekends to relax.. And seriously, sch is like a place filled with hypocrites.. Silent muggers all around, shall not pinpoint who they are.. Its like as good as a workplace filled with politics, backstabbers backstabbing one another without realizing that they are being back stab at the same time..

And i have pondered for months abt frenz, ppl u seriously wish to care but to them, ur existence may seem so minute or maybe even just another nobody in this earth.. Listen to their promises which times and again break, and reaffirming that they didnt mean it and will make up for it.. However, days after days, months after months, years after years, it doesnt change at all.. Grown sick and tired of listening to all this crap.. Say wat u meant, do wat u promise.. Empty promises, all talks but no actions simply makes me irks u.. Living in wat we call a great society, but in fact, its juz a facade to a town called hypocrisy..

On a lighter note on my happenings, I utterly embarrassed myself in sch, but shan't go into detail on that.. And now looking forward to shopping & Evangeline's bday.. Haha.. Chill Chill Chill!!!
Actually, i have some other cool happenings to post, but now i cant recall any so yea, till then..

Adopted a new policy..