History

Since sch reopen, i have been heading back home to hit the book everyday i end sch.. And i have been wondering abt my palship with my best pal that it seems that we seems to distant.. My life has change to i dunno for the better or for the worst and that i feel that my social relationship with anyone aint good at all.. I seem more and more like a social misfit.. I am also quite sick of my life, listening to quarrels and preaches every day.. It juz gets on my nerves..

Today while i was taking a nap, julien called me and told me something that set me thinking.. After the call, i unconsciously dropped my tears and look back to the times when we work together and have fun.. What has been changing, i am quite certain that none of us have changed, but things have juz spin out of control.. Flashback of our past run through my mind and all the fun and joy that we shared seems to fade and we have become more distant with each other.. And today my best pal reaffirmed that thoughts abt us getting more distant is juz a wild thought and not true and that its juz that his timetable is screwed and our timetable clashes so much that its so hard for us to even meet.. Why am i getting all emotional? I tear for who? Myself, Julien or Jiawei? Maybe its we that i teared for.. When things wasnt attended or managed, it wanes and the feeling that we have changes.. It juz rust and corrodes.. When we noticed it, its too late to rectify and solve already.. Do i take life too lightly, shld i treat everyone more significantly and quit being such a social misfit..

It seems that everything is returning back to wat it used to be in the past.. Hope it remains like that..

I hope everything would return to how it shld be. Treat everything given as a gift, embrace it with ur sincerity.