Teenagers

Finally ended my consecutive 5 days of work.. Totally worn out, hmmm, a bit of exaggeration but u get the drift.. lol.. Today Jeremy Lau came to find me when i was working, and Hobart also drop by to have a short catch up.. =D Jeremy stayed all the way till i end my work.. After that we went to walk ard and headed to the arcade to chill.. =D Thanx for the day.. =D Finally, tml is the day i can rest..

Thanks for everything.. Have a new perception of what life is.. =)

True

Its so true abt the last post title, combat everyday.. Fucking pissing me off.. To hell with 1st uncle.. He is the worse asswipe relative that i ever had, but today, i will disown that shit.. I despise him..

Why did all these happen? Hope this can resolve well..

P.S Its not between me and that asswipe.. I couldnt care less..

Everyday Combat

Finally, holiday has come again and i am here to revive this dormant blog.. Just finished my exam this week and its been quite easy except for the fact that i simply screw up my stats.. =X
And while i was having some trouble with my ITAB exam and i requested for help, that Uberly kind asswipe came and asked wat was the problem that i was facing, i told him that i did something incorrect and asked wat i can do to revert it back to how it was, he can juz admit that he have no idea instead of telling me to just continue doing and feel offended when i retort by asking whether he gets wat i mean.. And wat a good lecturer or tutor or watever shit he was, calling me an idiot.. Yea, i admit, i am an idiot, because i am arguing with an idiot.. Loser face.. I swear if i know who that asswipe was, i will lodge a complaint against him.. I dun see why he deserve any respect from anyone.. Luckily for me, i found a way to get the question done anyway.. =D

Recently, have been hunting for job but it seems so tough, so currently i am also reading novels and watching shows and anime.. Utilizing my time so as to make sure this holiday will be a fruitful one.. =D

My new found hobby.. =D

Feelin Myself

Geez, today reach sch at 830 to discuss for Character Development presentation, and they are late by half an hr.. =X 1st time ponning stats lecture this sem to do a last minute touch up of my script.. I am such a goodie goodie till today.. =( Lol..
CD presentation went quite well except for the fact that my class didnt really read the paper that we photocopied for them to think of the answer to answer.. =x And after CD i saw Natasha, geez, she couldnt recognized me.. And she said i was cute, but she later add on by saying i look like a poodle.. Thanx eh, for ur compliment.. lol.. On the way home, i saw Eunice, another one who couldnt recognized me.. Lol.. Today sure seems like a day where i can meet individual frenz eh..
CD is down, now tml or rather today, its Critical Reasoning Skills.. I seriously wonder how i should start my discussion with teacher.. Impromptu will be the skill that i will be equipping myself for this oral test.. Andrik, spare me some leeway.. Haha.. After CRS, i still have FOM quiz and gems presentation on wednesday and thursday respectively.. I feel so tired.. Not in the mood to think of anything(including CRS) too.. Screw it.. Not screwing it up in this context..

I feel so numbed..

Even bad men love their mother

How true can this sentence be? Haha.. Finally mum's back.. Gracious.. Nice!! Haha.. And she brought back nice chocs from australia.. Awesome!! Jesus, have been slacking much lately.. Muz start studying soon..

Allen's Freckles Chocolate

&

Margaret River Chocolate are Awesome.. =D

A New Transmission

Sch was bad for me.. This sem i have been eating alot and my life has become so hectic frm god knows wat.. I simply like the way it was back in the past where i can chill and slack ard sometime but now i dun even see myself hitting the books and i dunno wat i am doing for the past three weeks if i aint hitting the books.. GEEZ!! SCREW IT!

Back frm mentoring camp, it was quite a enjoyable experience with the exception that my group aint that high, and that my throat got worse frm all the shouting.. I didnt slp throughout and it was superbly cold out at SP after midnite and when dawn's breaking.. Gracious.. Made quite a few new frenz and they are all in SB, but i doubt i noticed them in the past.. LOL..

A sudden introspection struck me and send chill down to my deepest core and render me vulnerable in all four fronts. Engaged in fear that's so intense.

Mama

Yesterday, or rather this 24th of Oct, was late for sch because i took too long to dress myself up.. Ok, i know, its kinda stupid for a reason to be late, but juz stating the fact, and that i was late for an 1hr.. =( Ended early for sch, 1130.. So actually i only attended 1 and a half hr lesson.. Then my stomach suddenly felt a surge of pain, so instead of making my way to meet Evan, i went to eat instead.. Hehe.. Sry.. When i saw her msg that she ended her class, i juz bought my food, so i quickly gorged down everything on the plate and rushed off to meet her at FC 3.. Instead of having takeaway together, we both had our lunch with our own clique.. =X lol.. So, in the end she brought me to 'tour' the whole sch and i am amazed that i didnt walk pass and see so many places of my sch yet.. I tend to be forgetful very often recently, wonder wats going on.. Maybe a bug climb into my ear and is feasting on my brain.. Tsk.. Back to where i was, in the end we found a place to sit down and chatted.. Haha.. Always fun and enjoyable to chat with her.. And especially looking at her classmates.. I mean those bunch of loser boys.. They seriously look like shit like wat evan said.. DICKHEADS, FUCKTARDS..

Went off at 230 after she met with her classmates to meet my JP and Julia to vivo.. Made me wait for half an hr.. =.= Shopping and catching up with each other.. Saw some nice shirt so i juz have to save and scrimp and work.. We went to the top with our coffee and sat there till sunset.. It was enjoyable and talking trash with those two.. But then, Julia became quiet all of a sudden, so it leaves only me and JP to chat with.. And an unexpected person came to meet us as well, Jasper Chow.. Woots.. haha.. Was watching JP and Julia eat Superdog and Jasper eating Long John Silver inside Superdog while i, pathetically read my novel while watching them eat.. =( This intrigues me as to why are they doing this to the poor me.. Nvm, i will overlook this devious plot by them.. Haha.. After that went to help Julia look for a present for her fren.. Haha.. Parted ways at 945 and the three took bus, so i juz train back home myself.. Julia, why am i termed as hanky panky boy? lol..

25 Oct, mum flew to australia to visit my aunt.. Felt kind of weird, something seems missing.. Hope she enjoys herself there.. =D A week without her, home feels dull.. I am at home for today.. hitting on the school works tat i have. Boring.. Tml have an interview.. =D She will be back next sat nite.. =D

An idle mind is a devil's workshop.. Treasure every moment spent.. =)

History

Since sch reopen, i have been heading back home to hit the book everyday i end sch.. And i have been wondering abt my palship with my best pal that it seems that we seems to distant.. My life has change to i dunno for the better or for the worst and that i feel that my social relationship with anyone aint good at all.. I seem more and more like a social misfit.. I am also quite sick of my life, listening to quarrels and preaches every day.. It juz gets on my nerves..

Today while i was taking a nap, julien called me and told me something that set me thinking.. After the call, i unconsciously dropped my tears and look back to the times when we work together and have fun.. What has been changing, i am quite certain that none of us have changed, but things have juz spin out of control.. Flashback of our past run through my mind and all the fun and joy that we shared seems to fade and we have become more distant with each other.. And today my best pal reaffirmed that thoughts abt us getting more distant is juz a wild thought and not true and that its juz that his timetable is screwed and our timetable clashes so much that its so hard for us to even meet.. Why am i getting all emotional? I tear for who? Myself, Julien or Jiawei? Maybe its we that i teared for.. When things wasnt attended or managed, it wanes and the feeling that we have changes.. It juz rust and corrodes.. When we noticed it, its too late to rectify and solve already.. Do i take life too lightly, shld i treat everyone more significantly and quit being such a social misfit..

It seems that everything is returning back to wat it used to be in the past.. Hope it remains like that..

I hope everything would return to how it shld be. Treat everything given as a gift, embrace it with ur sincerity.

Realize

Woots, today after my sch, went down to bishan to service my phone, and damn it, they didnt finish servicing today even though its merely to update my firmware.. Wat the.. How incompetence and inefficient can Sony Ericsson be.. Screw it.. And met up with Hobart.. Woots.. Been a while since i last catch up with him.. Seems like he have grown more matured as well.. Great to go out with him.. At least it was enjoyable.. Haha.. Walk frm somerset to city hall to shop.. Haha.. Then went back Bishan and meet with some of his and my fren, but more to his.. Haha.. Woots.. Juz despise someone who is stupid enough to play for the sake of frenz and for fun.. Is fren that important.. Wats more, u play for the sake of trying to have more frenz.. Gosh.. U seriously think those are true frenz? Use some brain to think.. U are merely screwing ur life and treating it as a joke.. U seriously humoured me with ur natural stupidity.. And someone talk like he is the boss.. LOL!! Tsk.. Hobart, lets go out more often.. =D

Finally, settling down and started on assignments which are due on week 5 or 6 when its only week 1.. Whoa, how efficient can i be? Haha.. Next week shall witness wat are the tutors expression when i hand in those assignments.. Tsk..

Remember that time is money..

Dead wrong

Sch today was much better than expected.. Anticipating the first session of GEMS class on thursday.. Woots.. Will end at 12 for most of the friday.. =D Shiok, instead of 5.. Was dead wrong abt my timetable which is sucky.. LOL.. Ending earlier than b4, wats more with self proclaiming the end time for sch.. Haha..

View at ur own discretion.. Hmmm, wonder wat u mean by crude side? U mean boorish language? Tsk.. U mean by scolding, kaninabu chao chee bye, mai kao pei kao bu, wu ji tio lai, bo ji chi kua mai.. Hong gan la lan jiao kia, kiam gan la, mai zui gong lampah song.. Diam diam tio hor.. Chee hong.. Or scolding, pukimagao palabutoh makong bankai.. Or maybe, lei loh mo moi mo.. lei ge xi fa ho dai.. Or fuck u, u are such a fucking fucked up fucker.. Bastard.. Son of a bitch, daughter of a bastard.. Insolent slut, childish brat, Retarded idiot, Stupid loser, Foolish dumb screwed fucktard.. Cunt.. Wussy.. Delinquent.. Social Misfit.. Or maybe speak like a twit.. iiii lurbbs eUiiii woRrXxX, U luRrBbbs mOiIiii nOtzZzZ.. iiishhh tWitZzZzz.. FUCK OFF! Woots, when ur parents hear all this, even if they are being crucified onto an inverted cross, they will still leap back frm where they are banished and self mutilate themselves with the hope that u will repent.. O, and also, is this ur primitive self? U merely irks and disgust the ppl ard u.. By hanging out with them, u have made them degrade themselves to an intellect that is beyond their own belief and comprehension.. And i aint hiding myself behind any mask.. I am right here right now insulting u right in ur fucking face that u shld juz stop whining and if u want me to show ur dark nature, feel free.. See a psychiatrist if u have a split personality, wat ur good side, bad side.. FUCK ur backside la.. Cowardice in ur own comfort zone and waiting for me to enrage u to show ur true colours? Some 'smart' can that be? So after reading this, are u gonna find me and beat me up? Or maybe telling me, u wait, i call gang now, now u wait.. My gang come, beat u up.. U dun run.. U watch out.. Tsk.. U know urself well wat kind of person u are, no point putting a false front to be a goodie goodie..

Ain't running away and taking things in my stride now..

It's not easy

Whoa, last day of hols.. Damn, sch starting tml and then life will be so monotonous.. Relationship is such a bother.. Yet ppl still wants to get into one.. This is how dumb we can go.. But then again, sweetness often comes after heart wrenching moments.. =D And i owe ppl money like WTF!!! Phone Bill 165 dollars? WTF.. Screw it.. Wat i merely achieved during this hols is to get myself more tan and get more items.. But not clothing.. Same old clothings.. Damn, damn, damn.. Sch life is not easy to get by and this sem i cant fool ard anymore.. Screw it or get screwed.. haha..

I thought i got over you , but i found myself all over you again..

Platinum Blind

Sick and tired of being broke, but i juz cant break out of it.. =( LOL.. How true can this be.. Spending like there's no tml, acting like i am loaded when i am broke, it juz means i got a load of nothing.. LOL.. Woots, registered for GEMS today.. Got in Non-Verbal Body Language.. =D Frm next week on, every thursday i gonna miss FOM lecture.. LOL.. Gosh, damn, this sucks.. Timetable is screwed like god knows wat.. tsk.. Tml meeting the cool DESMOND.. LOL.. Actually not, he ditched me in the end.. Wat an asswipe.. Haiz.. I need my pay quick.. Processing the cheque like it was always today.. WTH.. Can the dumb accountant be any quicker? Or maybe Cylon shld juz hire me as their accountant, bet i will be 10 thousand and 1 times more effecient than the current one.. LOL..

I seem relieve yet there is still a fog of uncertainty shrouding the false front..

False Pretense

This few days have been going out to shop, but things still bother me as much as it do.. And yesterday, i went to make my specs, woots, another item down.. Whoa, but this hols have not been buying any clothing for myself, gosh, must get some soon and quick.. Thursday can go and collect my specs le.. =D Till my pay come, home i shall be at.. Been reading for today.. =D Tml is the day to register for GEMS.. WOOTS.. HAPPY AR.. ALONE FOR GEMS, ALONE FOR EVERYTHING.. =D

You left me empty but i am filled with you. Absence makes the heart fonder.

The Great Escape

Its DOPE, SEX MAN!!! =D

Woots, today(3/10) went to East Coast Park for a meet up and a walk with Crazy Pal. Best Pal, Hui min and Nat.. As usual, Hui min is late, but this time, crazy pal and best pal are even ltr.. Gosh.. lol.. Hmmm, and so we sat at mac and have dinner together, lol, and it was supposed to be a picnic, so in the end we also had our picnic food right inside Mac.. Gracious.. Lol.. After finishing our food, nat went off first since he needs to be home early.. As usual, mama-pecked.. LOL..
We went for a short walk at the beach b4 deciding to catch a movie.. So, we took a cab down to suntec.. And the fixture of those movies aint that accommodating to our 'time' so we went to marina square, and yet again, the movie was sold out.. So, we head down to Plaza Singapura to try our luck.. In the first place, we decided to catch the movie by the name 'Vicky, Cristina Barcelona', but then it was sold out.. Damn, its so popular.. Lol.. So in the end we settled for House Bunny.. SUPERBLY HILARIOUS.. HAHA.. After tat, we all went separate ways.. Good things sure comes to an end.. Be it anything, even friendship.. Lets juz hope the friendship between me and pals last as long as it can be.. =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG BROTHER!! =)
Today(04/10) i have been staying at home like wat a social misfit have to be at and went bugis at nite to have Steamboat since its my Big Brother Birthday.. =D

You left me feeling high and dry, with nothing, nothing but the question why.. I am alone and you left me to contemplate abt wat i shld do..
If this is wat u want, this is wat u get..

Cool!

An Unholy Realm (WOOTS) LOL..

Yesterday after i make my first A little piece of heaven (CAKE), i and my 2nd bro travel to Expo for the robinson sales and i bought a BELT!!! WOOTS!! After that i made my way down to my grandma hse again.. And today morning, i tried wat i made and the 'CAKE' taste well.. =D So glad it turn up fine since its the first time i tried to 'bake' it.. =D
After work, Shimin came over and try the cake that i 'bake'.. =D And the feedback was yet again NICE.. Happy ar.. Haha..

What do u think i shld do?

In Between

Though it gets dark at times,

It doesnt end..

WOOTS, A COUPLE!! =D

Ying Yang Lu (Neverending Road)

Simply love it.. This & the above..

This is love.. Asswipe Gang.. WOOTS!

Nite Cycling.. =D
Hui Min Side View

Me, Julien(Birthday Gal) and HuiminTat's wat u get with cake! Halfway while Cycling
Julien, Jiawei, Me and Huimin

Above: (Me and Julien) My screwed face..

Beside: (Huimin & Me) After Steamboat..

Alrite, lets move back our timeline for this post since its abt the surprised chalet for julien's bday.. =D Today(22/9) we met at ard 115 at Serangoon interchange to travel together to aloha changi chalet I.. And as usual, hui min was LATE.. LOL.. So me, jia wei, clemence, marcel waited there for ard half an hr for her to reach.. By the time we checked in, it was ard 4 plus going 5 already, and jiawei was supposed to meet julien at 515 at cityhall, woots.. LOL.. So he rush off first and the rest of us were left to decorate the chalet and to rent bicycles for those that cant make it in time to rent themselves at the shop..

We chill and chill till 9 plus when finally, Charlene and Angel are on their way to the chalet.. But at the same time, Julien was also pestering Jia wei to go to the chalet straight away.. So, out of desperation, we got charlene and angel to chiong cab down to the chalet b4 jiawei and julien reach, and they made it in time.. =D

While feasting on the chocolate cake, julien and huimin got sick of the cake and doesnt want to eat it, so i simply smear some chocolate at Hui Min face and this causes a 'Cake Fight' to start.. In the end, we cause the whole hse to be littered with chocolate cakes and cause hoards of ants to swarm the ground.. Thanx to jiawei and marcel, they cleaned up the mess that me and huimin made while we were washing up.. After chilling awhile longer, we (Jiawei, Julien, Angel, Charlene, Hui Min, Me, Clemence, Marcel) start our crusade through the cursed land.. WOOTS!

Set off at 12midnite, only to reach at 4am at East Coast Mac, injured myself due to my carelessness.. Then we cab back to the chalet except for Jiawei, Clemence and Marcel as they cycled their way back instead.. While the gals are in their deep slumber, i was so focused with sudoku until i solved it, and by then it was 7 plus.. I got quite wprried since they aint back and thus loiter ard the hse and calling their handphone with the hope they would pick it up but it was to no avail.. They took the 'shorter route' which seems longer and more complicated only to reached back at 8 plus..

After checking out, we (Jia wei, Julien, Me, Hui min, Charlene) went to eat at tampines mall for lunch while the rest went home to slp.. =D After that, we parted ways only to meet back at nite.. When i reach home, i unpacked everything and rest awhile b4 making my way down marina square to accompany Shimin once again.. Haha.. At ard 7, i left marina and make my way down to Bugis to gather..

Meet up with Alistair as well and it was nice catching up with him.. FYI, its only me, Julien and Huimin for steamboat.. =D Huimin was late like mad.. LOL.. And after that, me and huimin walk to paradiz to take bus home but we chilled a while outside Cheers for a can of beer.. =X LOL.. Woots, am half wasted since i didnt get my slp at all.. And now its 330 in the morning.. Goodness Gracious..

P.S. This events happens between Sun(21st/9) - Wed(24th/9)

You left me hanging.. Wat was left unsaid often cause things to become complicated.. Dun ditch me in between..

Do You Know?

Woots, today went to play soccer early in the morning, and gosh, its screwed, i misjudge the distance of every ball.. But then one thing i succeeded is that i tanned myself once again.. =D But the blazing sun vanished right after i applied sun tan lotion.. =.= And i got myself a blister.. Nice.. Happy times.. After that, went to have a haircut..

(SHORT HAIR, WOOTS)

(F-ed UP FACE)

Rushed back home to bathe and rush down to marina square to accompany Shimin.. Haha.. Reach there at ard 245 then as expected, she didnt have her lunch, so i went to suntec to buy donuts and tomato cherry.. =D When i return to where she is, we went off to eat the donuts and the tomatos right outside marina square..

After that, i waited till 6 plus to go for dinner.. And she only ate bread.. =.= Gosh, wonder how she is going to survive, leading such an unhealthy lifestyle.. After the cessation of work for the day, she accompany me to shop for present.. Haha, thanx for sharing ur opinion of wat u think of the jacket as well.. Bought it without much thought, and off we go.. She looks so tired at the end.. Lucky she slp early tonight..

Julia said something which owns me when i said she misses my insults..
'Talk to my hands and feet, cos you know better that you're in th league of defeat'.. WOOTS!!! I may have lost the battle now, but i will pawn u back and win the war.. Lets meet up soon and end this with a catastrophic blast.. Treat it as a finale.. But guess u will own me.. Since i am such a good person that i dun even insult anyone.. =X LOL..

Simple is beauty.. =) I want u to read me like a book.. Iwishtotrytotakeurhand..

Whoa

Wake up and had my cereal.. Woots, not bad.. Then went down to work at marina square.. 12-9.. Happy ar.. =D haha.. Was so bored since they wasnt much crowd.. So i wifi and chatted online.. and also msging.. =) But while doing all this, i am so hungry, i didnt had my damn lunch.. =( wifi-ed till 4 plus and i did at least 500 times coin roll till my fingers went numb.. =.= Finally, Shimin came to find me.. Haha.. So we both went to eat yoshinoya since we both didnt had our lunch.. Were dead hungry.. Haha.. Then came Shuni.. haha.. Juz cant stop laughing with her ard, a tad too retarded i guess (I am praising u).. =X After that, they went off to coffee bean and some game shop at suntec i supposed.. haha.. And they bought me a tiramisu cake as requested.. =D

Thanx Shimin for the liang teh and for paying for my cake first.. =) (I finished the whole body, it tasted better than i expected) =D

Waited for me to end work and we make our way to the big stairway outside marina square to eat our cakes.. And actually after they camwhore, we were heading back but they hate squeezing in the mrt, so we went back to marina square arcade, and guess wat, i saw Evangeline.. 0-0 =D woots.. And she sort of know Shuni, woots.. Haha.. After reaching the arcade, they said lets go home, so we ended up making a detour.. =X LOL.. Best workday.. Haha..

Izit juz another platonic friendship afterall? Shld i even try? I speak with hidden meaning, how i wish someone could catch wat i hint..

Low

With such low gpa of mine, I seriously ponder wat have i been doing in this past sem..
Today i was so shocked that my mum called and ask me whether i want to make my way down to tpy to buy phone, it makes me feel so guilty since her bday is on this coming tues and i aint able to buy her anything since i am sorta broke.. Shall make it up once i get my pay, and i shall pay her back for the amount of the phone.. And since i bought a new phone, i shld be happy, but i juz dun feel happy at all.. For some reason or so..
P.S, Maybe i have a heart of stone, and that's why i have failed to love and i love to fail.. Guess in time, nothing will get me lower than now.. Suddenly i feel quite happy.. Gosh, pms? =X

I thought i have sort out my thoughts since u had someone else, but still i ponders, maybe its another delusive desire of mine..

Maybe

I am oblivious to other's feeling,

I shld stop comtemplating,
I did something which upset someone,

It's juz my wishful thinking,
I am juz pondering too much,
I am juz wasting my life away,
I am destined to be alone,
I shldnt even appear,
Time will unveil everything for me and i will know wat i really want..
There are juz too many maybe for me; cant i juz get some answers out now?

P.S. FUCK IT!! I SWEAR ITS FUCK! FUCK FUCK FUCK AND STILL FUCK!!! WITH A FUCKING FUCKED UP GPA OF 2.538. I AM A FUCKING FUCKER.. WHY AM I JUZ SO FUCKING FUCKED BY THIS FUCKED UP GPA..

I just need some answers.. Maybe it's just me..

Suppose

Hmmm, finally went out today after i warrant myself a house arrest for the last week.. Went vivo and watch WALL-E with Shimin.. =D It was quite nice.. haha.. Went to seek for my ingredient too.. Finally bought all of it.. So tml i shall have a trial.. =D Bought a cheap spec yet again.. LOL.. Confinement again frm tml onwards.. =D Rot at home again.. Haha..
P.S. I solemnly hate fuckheads and immatured slutheads..
P.P.S. Wed will be the day results are out.. Gosh, grant me a 3 at least.. Or life will be so FFFFFF up for me and anyone who irate me..
P.P.P.S. Suppose that I missed you.. Suppose that i care..

What shld i do? I think god can explain..

Twisted

Whoa, yesterday went for my relative's chalet for bbq.. =D It was nice catching up with them.. Also went for some drinks while watching Man U and Liverpool match at the Platinum Lounge somewhere in Downtown East.. Liverpool cant play beautiful soccer at all, wat a disgrace, wonder how they even have fans.. Uncouth and ill behaved fans were inside the lounge as well.. Gosh.. Anyway, dun drink Bacardi Tropical Orange, it doesnt taste good.. The Ruby Grapefruit is the best follow by Lime.. =D Its been long since i last drank.. And that pub hard liquor is so damn limited..

P.S. This past week i have been such a loner, only msg one person and sorta talk to a few others online only.. And i feel quite fine being a loner, yet not at times.. Why so?

Somehow, i am in a dilemma right now..

Finally!

Ended my job at expo.. Now i am free, whoa hoooooooo~.. Got to know Sebastian, Soo Kiat, Anna, Shawn, Shuni and Shi Min while working in expo.. =D Happy times.. Wonder when will be the next time i will see them again.. A reminder to myself seb still owe me 3.. Haha.. Happy times.. Scouting for more jobs now.. =) Gracious, juz when i feel like posting some pictures, i have no pictures of my work or watsoever.. =( lol..
Happy 21st Birthday Brother!! =D Great to have u in my life.. =)

P.S. I juz love september with the many on-going birthdays and events accompanied with good food.. =D

You set me thinking yet i am unsure of myself now..

Can't Help But Wait

Wah, today was screwed, phone spoilt.. WTF.. Went off halfway while working to make my way down Plaza Singapura to Samsung Service centre to ask them to retrieved my sim card frm my phone.. And i bought a cool specs.. LOL.. Juz for the fun of it.. Geek with black.. =D Luckily my bro lend me his spare phone to use or i will have nothing to use.. I have to wait for my pay to come b4 i can get a new phone..

Same for you..

The Rush~

FOOOMMMMM~

Saw Jess early in the morning at serangoon today, which shock me like hell.. LOL.. Went back to secondary sch to give teacher's day present and rush off to work.. Gracious, only 4 hrs of wretched slp..

I am wasting my life away working almost 12 hrs(1030am - 10pm) everyday, with only 5 hrs the most to slp since i travel to and fro take 1hr each at the very least.. The rest are my small indefinite quantity and quality time by myself.. Leading a lifeless life.. How deplorable can that be.. 2 more days to go and i might be released frm my torturous life.. Working at expo hall 5, find me if u have nothing on.. =D

Just want to know how u feel abt all these things..

Wait a minute..

Whoa, finally exam ended..
And here comes holiday.. =D
Went for interview at suntec at 2.30pm when my interview is supposed to be at 11am.. LOL.. but still, i got accepted and will be working at expo frm tml onwards.. =D Whoa, missing lots of things.. =( Shall catch all those that i misses soon, after this fair..

When'll i see ur face again?

The way i do

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
I tried so hard not to think of u, but it was futile as i lay wide awake on my bed with the thoughts of u for hrs.. Velleity wont get me anywhere and i know that i have got to do something if i want to change ur mind.
I have nvr regretted watever i did and i am serious abt wat i said. Juz hope that it doesnt affect u during this period of time. 8 more days to the end of exam, i sure hope i doesnt screw this last two paper up as well. Lucks and all the best.. =)

You keep me pondering indefinitely and you are definitely worth it.

Tonight..

I have bared my feelings and there is a heave off my body though some other thing replaces it. I plan to fail and i failed, so does that mean i am a failure or does that make me an achiever? Sometimes i juz wonder if i am a failure or loser. For a pessimist like me, i already plan to fail everytime and dun hold high hopes for anything, but sometimes things juz managed to bring me down.. I always like to screw myself up, for some reason or so.. Always behind time..

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up, I need your loving hands to come and pick me up. And every night I miss you, I can just look up and know the stars are holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight.

Why am i so fan jian? Wallowing in despondency.. NAWT!! I wont give up..

Seize the day!

Finally 3 exams down, left 2 more to go.. =D I shall seize the day while i still can, screwing up is better than nvr trying it at all.. Looking forward to tennis next week.. =D Shall end it right here, nothing much to say today.. =)

Stay tuned for the latest information. =)

Misery Business!

Is there hope or is there not?

Stress is the the new chill..

Hectic life can be a relaxing..

Was it juz ignis fatuus or am i hallucinating too much?

The twilight existence of me wanting to be in ur life left me nothing but to yearn for the day u would notice my presence.

My lust for u synchronizes with every pulse of my heartbeat and yet fear and failure daunts me so much that it left me unspoken.

Thoughts were shrouded by the mist and it swirls indefinitely and breakout was not at all possible.

Exams will be coming right up, so shall end it here today and therefore, it will be less frequently updated.. =) While the future unveils itself, i shall hope for the better and think less..

i will keep holding on..

A little piece of heaven.. =)

I didnt slp a wink since i have to touch up on my presentation which is today. And i edited till 3 plus in the morning but ended my slping at 4plus.. =x B4 i even enter my slumber, i received my morning call at 545am.. Juz wat i told Yilin, thanx for the effort.. =D At first i was wondering who would it be since i didnt save her number in my phone at all and that i havent even get any slp, who would be awake at such a late time to call me..

I feel so lethargic and took like 1hr to gear up for the crusade which I have anticipated for a long time. Bad blood now flow throughout our body and have the cardiac output of 30 quarts a minutes after the combined class presentation.. War will break out soon and chaos will reign over us.. And when it befalls, there's no escaping of it, the world will fall apart and the two realm of the holy cult and the evil sect will thirst for more might and calamities will be wat is left for survivors to rectify.

Innocents will be praying for the day i would see a little piece of heaven since all i experienced was much of hell.. Now, angels will reclaim wat was stolen away frm me and purify the unholy fervor constantly oozing out frm me. Hatred and vengeance would soon be purged frm me, if not all, then part, and be replace by kindness and love.

Signing off, Nick..

Whoa, My first event job!! =D

Whoa, today wake up early in the morning to go work, but that ass make me wait for at least half an hr.. grrr.. haha.. Nvm, was quite slack at the start and it got tougher, though we slack for a period of time by going to watch a couple play basketball instead of continuing our work.. =D Alex then went to ask if we could play with them but got rejected.. Haha, nice try though.. And we started doing stupid things.. At the very end, i made two new friends, Qiwen and Yingying.. cool.. haha, went dinner with them at sengkang KFC before heading home.. At KFC i perform a trick to them, they are the first audience that i didnt screw up my performance.. haha.. NICE!! =D Throughout my narration of the trick, physiology tremor is wat affects my presentation.. Though it was still quite well done except for that they laugh at me cuz i keep shivering.. =S

Dulan when talking to a fuckface in MSN.. Try picking the last straw frm me and i shall treat u to a day of bloody mary.. Hope jesus will save u.. If not, meet my best fren satan.. =)

Signing off, Nick..

MENTORING DAY! =D Lucky me..

Today i woke up like 7plus and i realise my sch starts at 10.. =X so i went back to slp after everything was done swee swee.. but i didnt foresee that i would oversleep by this bit.. =( Grrr, lucky for me, i was only a tad late.. =D Felt pissed during ITAB lesson for some reason, but felt relieved after that.. Hehe..

Went for mentoring and i was like emo-ing ard.. haha.. Meiying said i was scary because i am quiet? haha.. nah, i aint, juz a little bored without anyone to talk to except my mentees.. They are cool, youth is their asset whereas knowledge is wat i shall impart them.. =D Am i attention seeking, i noticed i keep attracting ppl to look at me.. =X Looking at Terri, a cute little gal, juz remind me of Meiying, for some reason or so.. haha.. I realised throughout mentoring, i didnt really talk to anyone except my mentees.. Gosh, no bonding between mentors at all.. ;(

After mentoring, i was frantically finding someone to dine with me.. Juz when i see a glimpse of hope, it was dashed soon after it.. =( Buddy told me she got something on, so she cant make it.. But its alrite buddy, shall see u soon.. =D God-sis was sick, so she said maybe tml she will dine with me.. So i started looking at my contact list in my phone and MSN to see who can i get to eat with me, but no matter who i call, or talk to in MSN, they aint free.. But lucky lucky me, i give a call to jingyi and she was able to come and eat with me since she is still in sch.. Its been 5 months since i last met her.. =X haha.. She help me to configure my blog and she did it.. NICE!! haha.. Thanx for the help.. =D After that we went for a light dinner and also catch up a little since its been so long since we last met.. Chatted till her bus came and we parted ways.. =D

Waited for quite long b4 my dumb bus came and i was like super shag and tired when i reached home.. Guess i am getting old.. Meeting 7th month ghosts soon.. =X lol.. Watever the case is, i shall end here.. Let my life do the rest of the talking.. =D

Signing off, Nick..

Screwed up day, Fine nite!

Goodness Gracious, i screwed up my god damn econs paper due to my stupidity, i thought my formula was wrong, so i changed it, and it came out that i did the right thing, juz that i changed it, so i did the wrong thing in the end.. Gracious..

After that, i took a train and i dunno why i am juz so suay, the train i took is faulty, which cause me to take like 1hr plus to reach cityhall frm dover.. gosh, it juz suck, and my leg felt heavy, i gave my 'killer' stares to everyone whom i looked at.. =D

But after meeting my bro, he bought me a shirt and a pants.. =D thanx alot bro.. whoa ho, so glad abt it.. Gosh, tml is formal day and i am gonna wear formal, guess i will look idiotic.. =x haha.. Such a waste of my time to watch dunno wat indian thingy, which doesnt concern my sch nor me.. Haiz.. Alrite, shall end this post here.. =D

Signing off, Nick..

The best day of my life!!

Whoa, wat a day for me.. The best i could ever had, or so it seems up till this very moment.. Went out with my best pal, crazy pal and a fren to celebrate my bday.. Had a picnic at botanic garden which was relaxing since it has been a hectic and stressful term since the start of it.. After that, we went for dinner at Cafe Cartel and i ate like there's no tml..

We then rushed to esplanade to watch fireworks even though it was raining and we have no umbrella or watsoever to shelter us frm the rain.. Even though the fireworks is not as fanciful, the ambience is so perfect because of the rain, and definitely because of who i am watching with.. =) Drenched and wet, we went to chill at Haagen Dazs, and they bought a ice cream for me to eat since the cake was smashed, this make me even more bloated, since i have been eating and eating and eating.. We also camwhore like mad, this was like the first time i ever camwhore so much since i aint photogenic.. =X

It was quite a surprise for us since it was the first time we saw jiawei's parents and julien's reaction was classic, unforgettable.. Haha.. Had a short conversation with julien at the mrt station b4 we parted way and head for home.. Thanks, Jiawei, Julien and Charlene for today, not forgetting Angel for ur present.. =) Really appreciated it alot.. Today i didnt only earn presents frm u guys, but also this memories, and it will definitely be etched into my heart like endocardial tube fusing together. Haha, abit drama but its alrite.. =D Shall end this very first post here.. =D

Signing off, Nick..