Sunday Morning

WOOTS! ENDED EXAMS.. I SIMPLY ROCK.. THIS WEEKEND IS FILLED WITH ACTIVITES.. =D Oh, today i went to play soccer at THE CAGE, and and and i broke my spectacle.. FUCK! yea, thats the word.. As usual, whenever i play at THE CAGE, i nvr fail to break my spectacle.. And today, i broke it because we were chasing for a ball, and due to the fact that the floor was slippery, my fren slipped, and hit his head against mine.. Freak.. Oh, here comes poker tonight and tml, yet again is SOCCER.. =D SHIOK.. And also, BUFFET.. Nice.. haha..
P.S Sunday morning is doped.. haha..

You appeared in my mind every now and then..

Clean Breaks

This week and next week is gonna be hectic for me.. Yesterday went drinking, awesome much.. Shared our thoughts with one another, drank tequila.. RC seems tipsy, Jerry went into his slumber after a few cup since he got to work the next day, Jeremy and YC seems fine.. But for me, got a little high i guess, and super tired, but i still have control over myself..

Departed at 3.. Making our way home one by one.. Took NR6.. Crapped, fell asleep and got chased down the bus at 43o+.. In the end i cab back home, only to realise the lousy cab doesnt accept nets, so have to withdraw money at the nearest ATM to pay for the fare.. Right after i withdrew the money, i puked like crap, the first time i puked after drinking.. God screw it.. Wake up and went for soccer.. Feeling groggy though.. IT fair is coming, woohoo.. =D Shiok shiok..

Better start studying and do my projects if not i am so going to be buried alive.. Figuratively.. =D

You are such an escapist.. Even though somewhat i knew things would turn out this way i still go ahead with it, but u of all people, chose to escape and think that it would be good and all.. Deem me as an asshole or wat i dun care, but dun u think u are a little too immature? I bet i will be ur topic of 'this guy used to like me and stuff.' Its just so you to do all this but i dun really care..

Maybe i just wasn't that into you.. Avoidance is your forte, acceptance is mine..

A word compo..

DIU!

I screwed myself up badly.. And i am at a dilemma..

3-6-9

After the chat yesterday, i think i have found my resolve.. When i came back at 2+ in the morning, i dun feel tired at all. It seems as if u are constantly feeding me ample amount of energy to stay awake.. At 5 in the morning when i tried to slp, i couldnt, you seem to have bought all the tickets of the train as my train of thoughts was filled with u, u alone takes up most if not all of my thoughts. It was a nite of reminiscence. I realised that you were the only one that i can be my usual self with. We share the same frequency and character.. And i am sure you have nvr realised i liked you for a period of time and i always thought that it was because we were too close with each other that i felt that way so i tried to distant from you. All seems fine, until i met you again. I dunno why i felt the awkwardness and i bet you felt it as well, its like a mutual thing. And suddenly i was treated as a non-existent by you. You are the first person to make me go back on my words and throw my pride away to try to get you back.. Somehow, you made me go all over you though you dun even care if we would ever rebound. Questions of me and you together occasionally pops into my head and made me wonder. The actions that you do is able to affect my mood totally, its as if i am under some kind of drug. After distancing from you, i realised i seldom contact any other gals as well.. Whenever, i see ur msg now, it nvr fails to bring a smile across my face, sometimes during class i will juz laugh to myself for no apparent reason. I felt really comfortable being with you and that i dun care wat would become of us in the future, but now, i will try my best to get you back as a fren or maybe more than just fren. I have planned something but it all depends on how u reacts.

I have my resolve, are you juz going to continue this?

Hallelujah

This few weeks had been rough for me and today was relieving.. And i spent ard $100 yesterday.. =x felt so bad.. Today i went for bbq gathering and straight after that, PRATA session.. Totally awesome.. Never felt so good for quite a long time.. Very insightful indeed.. Have many more thoughts and ideas running through my mind, totally kept me awake at this hour of time.. Had a clearer picture of where i shld go and wat i shld do.. Alrite, shall finish my journal now..

We hit it off well, but can we end it well?

Suffocating Under Words Of Sorrow (What Can I Do)

Seriously, I did wat i could to get u back, but ur aloofness makes me feel like you dun give a fucking damn at all.. Fine, escape all u want.. If this is wat u want, fine, go ahead with it.. I shant bother no more till u come and find me.. Had enough, ur indifference to wat i do seriously deafens me like never before.. Affect me in every single way. I seriously cannot think of anything more that i can do to rectify.

On a lighter note, went out with Meiying today to watch Angels & Demons, awesome much though they changed the last branding to something uncool.. =.= Bought my clothes as well, now the only thing left to do is to send it for printing.. =D Saw desmond and we somewhat had a mini telepathic conversation which kinda made me laugh.. =x haha..

What can i seriously do?

Makes Me Wonder

Gratitude.

(I will be the first in the queue for this)

I threw my pride away and bite my own tongue for wat i said, but u still choose to escape without giving me a reason. Now i have to lay in it and deal with things left unsaid. I wonder if it makes a difference if i continue to try. Little did i know the effects you had on me would be so drastic but i still hope you are living happily. Thank you for being such a good friend to me and that you will never be replaced. Even though things turn out this way, Things i learnt from you or wat have turned out now had made me realised and understand much more. We might never even talk, or even meet each other but when you need me, i will be there for you. How true is this, 'Love the heart that hurts you the most , but never hurt the heart that loves you the most'.

Lost & Found.