Broken

Recently, i have been down on my luck.. Went gym on wednesday and hit my lip and my finger with dumbbells. Today, i went to play soccer and i dislocated my right hand while saving a shot, which renders it unable to do much things much less to say write properly.

And damn it, i still havent get my pay and i cant find any damn jobs. Geez.. I am so damn dead..
Hopefully my hand recover quickly and i can find a job soon. =D

Endless cycle. Understand my intricate self.

Out of Reach

What up? Say hello to Major WHORE & General AWESOME.. =)

Reminisce the days when we were all together having fun and laughter makes me want to relive the moment. But its been like a year and many things have changed. Doubt we can hang out together as a whole group again. Who am i actually? It juz seems like i still havent find out the answer. Am i studying juz because this realistic world requires qualification so that one would be recognized? Bewildered by these thoughts that kept me alive.. Whatever the case is, will definitely try to work these thoughts out and to organize some outing.

Life is filled with emptiness.

Empty

Life withers.

Recently, have been job hunting, watching shows and yea, finally finished my How I Met Your Mother Series.. =D Up next, Heroes, Supernatural and Ghost Whisperer. Thursday gonna start my crusade through IT Fair. Sure hope i can sell, if not i am dead.. =(

Watched Push, but the ending sucks, after which went to catch up with Shuni and Shimin, hope i didnt bore u two out, though i certainly doubt i didnt.. =X Sry, i juz dun know wat to say.. Haha.. tsk tsk..

Alrite, back to my life, even though i might seem to be busy with my life and such but the irony is that i still feel empty.. I juz seems to lag something in my life, but i juz couldnt describe wat it is.. I seems to be thinking but i dunno wat i am thinking.. I cant concentrate on wat i am doing recently as well.. Its like i am facing a paradox right in my brain.. Damn it.. Screw this feeling..

Is there something more?

Omen Reprise

Yesterday was having my damn STATISTIC EXAM.. Hope i get good grades.. =D Up till now, exams are still quite fine. After that, went gym.. At nite when to meet Amanda since its been long since i last saw her, and that it was a miracle she wanted to meet me after quite long.. haha.. Chilled at thomson plaza starbucks, till 1 plus and cabbed over to her neighbourhood to chat.. Send her home at ard 4 in the morning and off i go to yishun mac to absorb some tiny weeny bit of knowledge for this upcoming last paper.. Back at 630 and went to bed..

Woke up at 11 plus today to meet Evangeline to shop for Afiq's present.. And she arrived ltr, though i know its as usual.. haha.. Hmmm, after which we went to meet Afiq at marine parade.. Today wasnt a good day for me.. Went out penniless for the first half of the day, found out my shirt got some red dye which seriously got me a little more upset.. Juz when i was excitedly withdrawing my cash frm the atm machine, the FUCKING machine, instead of dispensing cash, opened up, and for a moment, i was totally stupefied when the machine ate my damn card away.. After i recollected myself, i went down to somerset to get a replacement and to withdraw cash as i am not going to accept the fate of being out penniless the whole day..

After which, went for a little movie.. =D THE CURIOUS CASE OF BENJAMIN BUTTON.. Its awesome.. haha.. And after that, we went separate ways to head for home.. =) I need a damn job, am seriously broke..

Am i concealing my feeling? Am seriously puzzled..

This Isn't The End

Whoa, finally reached the last day of sch for year 1. This past week has been one hell of a week for me, projects and presentations stole my time, life and everything from me, but fill me with stress, pimples, deadlines to meet, and nothingness. But my presentation today owns.. Haha, put that aside, now i have a one week break, WOOHOO!! NAWT!! Its study break.. tsk.. Just when school ended, exams are getting closer and reaching out for me, every second that ticks away right at this every moment is a second wasted to get knowledge into my uber fast processor and awesomely humongous memory space. Life will change and be awesomely legendary after exams. And nothing's ending, or rather when something ends, it leads to the start of something.. =D

Nothingness..

Bite My Tongue

Lots of thoughts have been going through my mind this week yet i could only elucidate one of those things which sets me thinking and keep me feeling lousy.. I was thinking of the fact that we activated 'free rider' for FOM project to reduce Firi's marks down to only 50 for his participation.. But seriously, that whole day after we activated that, i was wondering, does he deserve only 50 out of 100.. Because to me, giving him only 50 out of 100 is too harsh and adding to it, i seriously dun wish to undermine his result juz because of a lame excuse like wat if he do better than me.. Come on, i seriously dun really care, and that even if he is to beat me in that, that juz mean that he is good.. That is juz a stupid reason and pls dun think i am such a lowdown person.. The reason is juz too lame for me to accept that he simply deserve 50 out of 100.. Personally i feel he deserve much more than 50, like at least 75 for the minimum.. But since the whole group(including me) put 50, he accepted and yea.. I was seriously troubled by this for that whole day.. GOD DAMN IT!! But yea, in the end i feel that its no point pondering over it since i cant do anything to undo it..

Anyway, yesterday was quite fun, went sch but seriously have no mood so didnt really pay attention to any of the lesson.. Was totally anticipating for the nite life that i have planned.. Though it wasnt very good, i still appreciate u guys for making an effort to come.. Thanx.. And i will definitely plan it again after exams.. I feel so weird after jerry 'fortune told' abt my life for this year, it seriously got me pondering abt things.. Since when am i so superstitious. geez.. Seriously, i have to save up, been spending quite a lot recently.. Damn damn damn..

Chinese New Year is juz ard the corner yet i dun feel anything.. And that projects and exams are drawing nearer.. I could hardly breathe..

I feel like a failure everytime i think of it.. Hope i can find the answer soon..

A Town Called Hypocrisy

Hypocrisy teems the town..

Alrite, here i am to update my god forsaken blog.. tsk.. I have been a tad too busy nowadays to even update my blog.. Lets start with sch, been flooded with tons of homework and presentations and reports to do.. Always looking forward to weekends to relax.. And seriously, sch is like a place filled with hypocrites.. Silent muggers all around, shall not pinpoint who they are.. Its like as good as a workplace filled with politics, backstabbers backstabbing one another without realizing that they are being back stab at the same time..

And i have pondered for months abt frenz, ppl u seriously wish to care but to them, ur existence may seem so minute or maybe even just another nobody in this earth.. Listen to their promises which times and again break, and reaffirming that they didnt mean it and will make up for it.. However, days after days, months after months, years after years, it doesnt change at all.. Grown sick and tired of listening to all this crap.. Say wat u meant, do wat u promise.. Empty promises, all talks but no actions simply makes me irks u.. Living in wat we call a great society, but in fact, its juz a facade to a town called hypocrisy..

On a lighter note on my happenings, I utterly embarrassed myself in sch, but shan't go into detail on that.. And now looking forward to shopping & Evangeline's bday.. Haha.. Chill Chill Chill!!!
Actually, i have some other cool happenings to post, but now i cant recall any so yea, till then..

Adopted a new policy..