Back at one

Alright, back from Powerhouse, would say its an utter disappointment.. Spend so much time queuing and cabbing ard.. My 3rd time so far and the worse clubbing experience ever, a major turn off.. Saw hui chin and her homies and etc.. But other than that, nothing much worth mentioning..

One word to describe me, 'Irascible' would be the most appropriate word right now.. Everything just seems to pissed me off.. I seem to be pushing my luck so very often that in my sub conscious mind, i just hope to get bash up someday and just lay motionless on the ground.. I wonder whether that will make me feel more alive..

Beneath all these facade front, i am just an hollow shell with nothing to look forward or strive for.. I hate being undefined, finding myself has always been my priority for so long and yet the result i get is just another round about.. I just wish to be a decent student chilling ard being low profile but at the end of the day, i do the extreme stuff that makes me more prominent.. Whats worse is that i have no close friends since i shape shift into another person when hanging out with different groups of ppl.. Maybe i am just an angry hedonist..

Apart from that, there are so many uncouth faggots out there and yes, i am ashamed to say i am one of them but seriously, once u show a frail side, ppl will tend to take advantage of u, its just human nature.. Since ancient time, we are just making use of one another to reach our goals, in a way or another, its a reality that is unavoidable.. Life is so much of an irony, and the endless cycle of hypocrisy just makes me wish that Armageddon happens right now so everyone will just fade to black..

Alright, back to studying before heading for soccer.. =D Influx of thoughts are gushing into my head so much that i cant relate myself well.. All are just my two cents..

Life cease, love wanes.

Chalk Line

After reading someone's blog, i am awe strucked.. Its very enriching and true..

Before i type this post, i asked Pearle one question,
-Nick- Where will this lead to? STUB.. says:
do u consider me as someone who knows lots of gals, or someone who knows few gals..
Pearle 45 says:
hmm a guy who knows alot of girls.

But i have few frenz that are gals that i keep in contact with.. Everyone seems to be passerby in my life..

So actually, it is just to rebut the fact that not only someone who knows few gals tend to think that every new gal that meet is a potential gf, but someone who knows lots of gals can also have that same thinking.. Personally i have known a number of people who are like that. In fact i wont rule myself out frm this as well.. Its just the desire and such that can totally distort the sanity of a person.

'No money, No honey. Thats how fucking practical girls are these days! You got no car, they tell u, 'Oh sorry, i got sth on', you got the car, they ask u, 'dude wana chill in town?' wtf -.-" back when u were in secondary, u'd go town via public transport, now if no one picks you up, you declare urself home-bound.'
Adapted from a friend's blog..

I find the above paragraph very true.. Or more or less along that line.. Material gains is all people talks abt now, majority, and yes, its a stereotype here.. But its also a fact, who doesnt seek for material gains and wealth in this days.. The slightest way possible, everyone is a part of this.. =)

And everyone talks abt equality, but who in the first place aint the least bit racist or sexist.. Even when a gal says that guys and gals are equal, but in their subconscious mind, its still mildly skewed towards the fact that guy shld do this and that..

Everything is just by a chalk line..

Now i shall hit the club, 'Powerhouse'. =) Till then..

Easily blurrified or erased. Where would this lead us to?

Another Song About The Weekend

Let me just blog one last time before sch starts on this coming monday.. The time is up, sch's back with the same usual routine for me.. Screwed..

Didnt achieve much at all this hols.. And kinda amazing how i source for ppl and its always a success.. =))) Awesome..

Aint life tiring revolving ard being superficial, materialistic, stereotyping and judging one another.. It makes us look like we were ill educated.. Actually, who can really judge, no one.. Everyone falls into a certain criteria somewhere.. Not even monk, nun, pope or watever and whoever be excluded frm this.. Even the saint or god sin.. Who is to say and know wat and how satan is? How can we be so sure satan is evil and not kind and watsoever.. People who have this thinking in their head, think again, u know wat u are? You guys are merely stereotyping and showing how superficial humanity is.. How well u ppl know abt God, who knows 'God' might actually be the Devil spreading blasphemy abt 'Satan' which might be the real God. Its just how we perceive things.. For those who know me and wish to retort abt this, yes, i am an atheist(not a pagan), but i am saying in the view of a neutral person.. Think abt it before u comment..

That aside, school life, shall get ready for my DOPING school life.. woots.. Feeling all high and happy with my awesomely screwed timetable.. NAWT! Screw school.. Lets hope for the better though.. =D Life is always filled with pretty lies to cover those deep cuts within ourselves.. Shall enjoy and make full use of my weekend.. =)

P.S. Did i forget to mention that catalog is my new love..

Let's be true to ourselves. They are like my checklist, my field reports.. Damned, losing it..

First & Foremost

LET's BEGIN WITH FUN STUFF!
30/9(Wed) was my ALPHA nite @ REBEL! This is the point when my holiday takes a turn from boredom to more than simply awesome.. 2 bottles of chivas and off we hit the dance floor.. WOOTS!

On the same week, 3/10(Sat), we hit the same club again due to Social House being cluttered with CHINKS! GOD, but nevertheless its yet another awesome nite out.. Just 1 bottle of chiva this time.. Its been hell of a crazy nite for everyone.. But we wont relent, we will still do it sometime.. Watch us peeps..

To summarise: 1week, 2 days, 3 bottles.. GAH.. 'What happens in the club, stays in the club' Carry this whenever we go, we all have our own mess in it so we leave it as it is and not sprout all these around like wild flame..

As for my hols, its definitely monotonous. Its sick actually.. Sleep at 5-6 am and wake at 3-5 pm. Finally cleared 'Heroes' and 'Hanazakari No Kimitachi E'.. TOTALLY AWESOME AND HILARIOUS.. Hanazakari is a must watch.. Somehow, i felt lonely throughout this hols until this past week and after watching Hanazakari.. Guess all this somehow changed my life, slowly, but definitely undergoing metamorphosis.. 2 weeks more to the start of my dreadful school semester.. Gotta do as much as i can and be done with my guitar and 2 books.. Tentatively, this shall be it..

You don't have a place, you are out of the game.

My Life For Hire

Finally exams are over, even though i won't do that well, i am not daunted by it.. I am taking it too easily i guess.. Before my exam ends, i was occupied with overwhelming thoughts, so much so that one would feels an assorted variety of emotions at the same moment.. It just crashes your mind, and before one knows it, it malfunctioned..

Why things turned out this way, this still perturbs me after so long, i fucking hate it.. It's like a tug at my heartstring whenever i am browsing through my memory bank.. It is as if memories of you occupies the most prominent room just by the corridor, Influx of memories often revolves around you somehow, but i know that all these won't revert back, its like a widening gap that can't be mend.. I kinda hate the fact that i still hope to talk to you but its impossible anymore.. Why had all these had to happened? Totally screwed..

Lets not drown this post with solitude and sorrowness, that is if, any was sensed.. Currently, its holiday, so i have planned a routine for myself.. Hopefully i can achieve what i planned.. Hopefully i have work as well..

Everyday, Guitar.. Tuesday - Learn guitar from friend as well.. Read more novels.. Every saturday jog and stuff in the morning.. Every night it will be drama series.. Hopefully, i am able to find job so that it could fund me for tons of things like trips to taiwan, ITP(Vietnam), japan, and of course, SLR.. TRUCKLOAD OF WISHLIST NOW, how i wish i strike lottery or have tons of job opening for me.. Anyone, hire me please.. =D PROJECT S.A.V.E!

Tml it shall be another day out, I wonder how am i supposed to achieve this project save.. Grrr.. Nvm, i shall start another bank account and deposit my money inside.. =D My funds for good stuff.. =D Shall end it here.. =) Be back soon.. =)))

What wouldn't be of me without you.

P.S. I think i am losing more than i am gaining..

Dawn of Anguish

Alrite, everything seems screwed for me, ppl seems kinda fucked up to me.. I get pissed off and frustrated easily.. Some things i realised, ppl come to you when they need help and when you needed help, they fool around with you and what's worse, some preach at you for FUCK SAKE and think they are fucking god damn matured.. SERIOUSLY, just fuck off and suck ur mother fucking pride up.. Oh, to continue with what i said, they FUCKING FOOL around with you and still not help you, divert you to someone else to seek for help.. ALL THESE FUCK UP PPL, JUST FUCK UR OWN LIFE and die.. Am i also fooling around too much that i am giving others the impression that i am merely air-headed, stupid, fucked up, irritating.. I think i am, so i should just shut the fuck up and be serious from now on..

I finally found something, and somehow after reading it, thoughts, memories started gushing into me yet again.. FUCKED.. Is it because of me? I hope not.. Shouldnt have gone so far, so we wouldnt fall so hard.. Maybe its just me.. Nevertheless, i just hope you will have more friends and enjoy your great life.. =)

Maybe i am losing friends faster than i expect, or maybe i should say, realising i am losing friends.. WHAT THE FUCK do i really want? I am just too frustrated to study for my exams.. FUCK!

Unravel the obscure. Memory lapse.

Sunday Morning

WOOTS! ENDED EXAMS.. I SIMPLY ROCK.. THIS WEEKEND IS FILLED WITH ACTIVITES.. =D Oh, today i went to play soccer at THE CAGE, and and and i broke my spectacle.. FUCK! yea, thats the word.. As usual, whenever i play at THE CAGE, i nvr fail to break my spectacle.. And today, i broke it because we were chasing for a ball, and due to the fact that the floor was slippery, my fren slipped, and hit his head against mine.. Freak.. Oh, here comes poker tonight and tml, yet again is SOCCER.. =D SHIOK.. And also, BUFFET.. Nice.. haha..
P.S Sunday morning is doped.. haha..

You appeared in my mind every now and then..